shake and bake.

i attempted cake-pops.

i've made them thrice before and to my credit they did turn out well... not so much this time. it started last year for my best friend's birthday, my obsession with these bite-size-on-a-stick delights, and i just cannot stop. while it's true i don't make them very often, it's not for a lack of my thinking up creative and super cute ideas. it's more a lack of execution ability.

the logistics: a regular cake batter mix makes about 60 cake pops. baking, rolling, freezing, stick, icing  x 60 + one slightly crazy perfectionist = foul language and a bad attitude. so about 38 (ok exactly) cake pops in i decided they weren't cute enough to share with the world. i should note that i have mild-to-moderate obsession with being martha stewart.

so i threw them all away. yes, all of them and the 4.5 hours i'd spent working on them.

things i wish i knew yesterday:
1. white chocolate doesn't melt the same as dark chocolate.
2. cake pops would come out a lot better if i'd had a couple of glasses of wine while baking.
3. martha went to jail. she's not perfect either.

dinner, dancing and eternity to follow.

wedding season, it's more fun than christmas.

it's been a marathon wedding season (also known as 'summer') for me and my friends. while it's true that i am no closer to being betrothed than i was 3 months ago, i have had so many wonderful friends 'take the plunge' this summer. there's a range of varied and sometimes embarrassing emotions that a single person experiences during the season of wedded bliss and i have, embarrassingly enough, experienced them all.

the ugly, the bad, the good. in that order.

jealousy: i cannot tell a lie, well i can, pretty well actually, but i won't. i have been jealous. it's not one of my finer looks but it's one i've dawned a couple of times (in the privacy of my own home of course) over the last few months.

self-doubt: it's ugly too. but it has happened with much more frequency (in the company of best friends of course) and it hurts a lot more too. 

and finally..
overwhelming happiness: it-is-so-fun-when-friends-get-married!!!! i feel so blessed that i am friends with these amazing people! they found eternal happiness! they asked me to be a part of their happiness! the people i know party like diddy!

things i wish i knew yesterday:
1. waiting for love ain't easy. being unhappy or self conscious makes it harder.
2. wedding cake and shiner bock might be better than wedding cake and champagne... just sayin'.
3. bring back-up deodorant for outdoor receptions. embarrassing, but true.